So I left my 4 years of journalist life going into unknown.Some called me stupid,because I have a bright future there.Some called me brave,because I am courageous enough to take the step to see the world.Me?I call myself lost.I didn't exactly left the job for nothing or have a noble aspirations of seeing the world.It was a spur of the moment when you felt tired of doing the same thing every week,very different from what I have been doing.Then one day,I got an opportunity to learn to do something which I have always wanted to try,so I jumped to another boat.
It was a social media position in a travel company.As fun as it sounds,as much ideas as I have,things didn't work out.I can't pinpoint to a particular reason,it's the work culture,the people,the mindset… everything doesn't seem right.了解到这是一个快速发展的行业，I tried my best to pick it up as fast as I could.But expectations weren't set correctly right from the beginning and having to deal with people who boosts about being expert in social media when they are not,was just too much.
所以一个月后我就放弃了。And all these happened in June.Not that I gave up trying,but it just didn't feel right.Yes I do agree that nobody is born to know a job but when you know that this is not you wanted to do,isn't it better not to waste each other's time?But I must admit that I did learn quite a bit about social media during that month and I am grateful.I am shocked by the graphs I have to read everyday!哈哈
So what's next for me?I don't know.You can call this quarter life crisis.我不想因为我需要一份工作而跳槽。In fact,这个月我很高兴，因为我有时间独处。for my family and for my friends.I signed up for full time Japanese class and made new friends.I have also went back to pursue my interest in doing food miniature.I spend my lunch time meeting different friends to have meals and catch up on each other's lives.Some of them I only see a few times in a year,and some I haven't met for years!I also spend time having meals with my Grandfather.
Other than that,I have been quite blessed to be given a lot of opportunities for this little blog of mine.I spent more time drafting posts and meeting up with potential brands.As much as I am self sustainable at the moment,the boy and aunt have been really worried.他们到处暗示，i.e.will you be able to pay for the house?你不想再找个机会吗？Are you sure you want to do this??
Now the next question I have been asking myself,what is my dream?What is it I really want to do?Not many people I know talk about their dreams.They seem embarrassed to say it out loud.这些人从未测试过他们的梦想。他们不知道别人会不会嘲笑他们。They're not sure if they're aiming too high or too low.他们不知道自己的梦想是不是真的可以实现，还是注定要失败。Just like me.
Yes,the best thing in life is to do what you love.但是，发现梦想中的工作和你在生活中要做的事情并不总是那么容易。在某一时刻，I have kinda given up hope.I lost sight of dreams and have been unsure what is worth dreaming and working towards.Not trying to say that the boy is my dream killer,but he is realistic.Just a few nights ago,he told me,"If you are not earning enough,I have to work harder and earn more for our house."压力是对的。-_-
It really takes A LOT of confidence to talk about a dream and even more to pursue it.I didn't want settle for the average.As someone puts it,"当你满足于你应得的不足时，you get even less than you settled for."I totally agree.You can't reach for a dream and remain safely mediocre at the same time.
如果你也在寻找你的梦想，perhaps these pointers which I found online can help you:
– What are your hobbies?Give each of your hobbies some thought,and think about whether they're things you love to do,而且你也很想以此为生。
– Who / What / Where do you like to work with??
– When have you been happiest?Think about the happiest times of your life,and what you were doing,who you were doing it with,and where you were doing it.
– Crvwin备用eate a clear vision.Write down you dream,尽可能清楚。
– Practice,practice.While you're taking your steps to realizing your dream,尽可能多地练习你的激情。
– Set aside time each day to work towards your dream.
– Pretend you can't fail.Take away all fear of risk and loss,and believe in your success.
– Live as you want to be remembered.How do you want to be remembered when you die?如果你想记住实现梦想，then don't start on it when it's too late.Start on it now.活出你的生活，让你的梦想成真。
I am still embarrassed to say what is my dream.Perhaps one day when I am ready…I am still wondering if that is the right dream,wondering if that is the path I want to go.
好的，我在这里结束这篇文章。Here's something for you,always remember there are only two kinds of people in this world— the realists and the dreamers.The realists know where they're going.The dreamers have already been there.If you already have a dream,put it to the test and start going after it.🙂